Tuesday, July 07, 2009
Yesterday was a very much suay day for me. I had flu. I got no ciggs for my morning puff. I had to resort to stealing, after I smoked, I was so fucking giddy. Somemore I was sitting down, I told myself "No Nicole, you are superwoman! If you faint, nobody is going to care anyway." I was almost late. I started sneezing in class like mad and I didn't bring tissue. So I used up all my classmates' tissues. After school, no cigg. Have to walk all the way till Causeway to buy. So I slept from 8, and here I am. Now, I think I'm having fever. I'm starting to hate guys. Don't you find that they only good for looks? Just because you're better than one of the few other girls, then they talk to you and act so freaking nice. After that when they get their gf or found someone prettier, they just cast you aside. Wait till I have a cock, I would fuck every girl men.
I hate to be sick men. Only when you're sick, you can see who really cares and who doesn't. It hurts so much that when you realise even your own family members just don't really care. I'm asked to see doctor alone again. Second time, in my whole entire life. So much for saying that its a very big accomplishment that I'm single for 7 months, now I would I have someone.
I'm tired of waiting. I just wait and see how I'm going to spend my weekends. Then he can go to hell.
ACCEPTANCE 9:53 AM
